You can’t break a woman who is self made. She’s courageous and strong, because she walked through her darkest nights alone. She faced her own fears, and picked her own self up off the floor when it was time to start again. She doesn’t fear your monsters, because she was warrior enough to slay her […]
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Don’t You Know?
Don’t you know by now that every love poem is about you? Do you not yet see that every song, every hastily scribbled line, every passionate rendition is for you as much as it’s for anyone? Love isn’t a one-on-one thing, something that can be kept between one giver and one receiver – because in […]
Here I go Again
In matters of the heart I have never been able to settle on anything short of real. Sometimes I get distracted, but nothing but true intimacy long appeals. I need something that goes beyond. Beyond the trappings of social norms and roles, dramas, wounds, or masks. I guess I’m addition or quantum physics, depending on […]
Morning Prayers
take good care of him in all the ways I was not able I’m but a flawed human but you are more capable only you know what his soul truly needs please grant him grace that he may finally be free
Visceral Pain
You were my first. Not my first kiss. Not my first love, or my first pain. You weren’t my first sunshine, or my first rain. Not my first teacher it’s true, but you might have been the first to really get through. Your lessons were like a hammer against the remainder of my pride. Your […]
Mother Wounds
Every time you find yourself remembering what wasn’t there. Every time you have a moment of longing for all that you wished she could be. Lean all the way into it, then bring yourself back. Grab a hold of it, that feeling of love and security, with the same desperation that you would have had […]
Lifetimes
No matter how many lessons I’ve gathered since that day. No matter if I tell myself you’re better off, spin it the right way. It’s true, besides you, I didn’t care for much of anything. It’s true you knew better, and I had to learn so many things. Lifetimes have come and past since I […]
Courage
Courage. So few people talk about how quiet it is. The word sounds so loud. Like the roar of a lion or the thunderous clapping of a waterfall. But courage, I’ve found, is quiet. And it starts out small. Like a single stilled moment in a whirlwind of thoughts. Or single statement uttered into the […]
This is War
Ashes and dust clouds of crumbled strongholds floating upon the very air. crimson trails of old blood, fragments of broken ideas are scattered everywhere. armor cracked and bent, arms and sword heavy; it’s not me that’s scared. heart and mind at the ready, something deep inside knowing that only the light will prevail. ©️ 2024 […]
Hero
I didn’t wake up feeling like a hero. Wrapped around a coffee cup, struggling to fight off the sleep still pulling at my eyelids and weighing on my shoulders, I felt more like the withering plant in need of saving. Waiting. Waiting for the sun to rise and energize again. I didn’t feel like a […]
What doesn’t kill you
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, they said. But it did kill me. It killed my sense of self worth. It killed my faith in myself. My faith in love. My faith in the world. It murdered my hopes and crushed the seeds of any dreams under its heel. Yes, I got stronger. But […]
My Younger Self
So often I’ve heard people talk about what they would say to their younger self. And so many times when they look my way, expecting some deep and drawn out response, I stare blankly back. Unsure. Conflicted. Because every time I come to the conclusion that I wouldn’t want to change anything. Even the things […]
In the Morning
Just me and God, in the early morning hours. We drift among stars dusting a sky of the darkest blue, with a tinge of turquoise spilling in at its edges. Like my soul, it too is changing with the rising light. Just me and God, alone and together. She moves me, standing still at the […]
New Year 2024
New years has always been one of my favorite celebrations. At times even the most significant marker of my entire year. I think because it’s always been a time of rebalancing for me. Even as a child who didn’t yet understand what I was up to. A time when the recollections of past lessons naturally […]